10 Things I"d Like the Mother of a Stillborn or Miscarried Child to Know
Since experiencing a stillbirth first hand, I have tried to reach out to other women going through similar situations.
Recently, I went to the brief calling hours and funeral for a little baby that just never breathed on his own.
His parents were there, all sad and numb with grief.
I gave the mom a little prayer book and I tried not to say anything stupid.
I mainly just said that I was so sorry for her pain and that I wished that I could make it better.
With the time constraints and a line of other people wishing to pay their respects there wasn't much else to say.
But to every mom who has suffered a stillbirth, here are 10 things I wish I could tell them.
It is okay to be sad.
We don't "do" grief very well in this culture and I really think that's a shame.
Nonetheless, losing a baby and all of the hopes and dreams that go with it can be a shattering experience, and there is nothing wrong with having those feelings of deep sadness and grief.
Time will make it better.
The images and events fade into our memories and the intensity of the pain starts to lessen.
It doesn't make you less of a mother to start to feel a little happiness in your life when you're ready for it.
The grief will still come in waves, (I have been surprised at how much more I have thought about my own son as the 10 year mark approached), but those waves will space out and when they do come, eventually you won't feel as overwhelmed by them.
Don't feel obligated to pretend that you don't feel the way you feel.
People want you to feel better so that they can feel better.
The scripture says to "Mourn with those who mourn.
" Don't be afraid to remind them of that.
Take care of yourself.
Eat, exercise, get dressed.
These things really help.
The loss of my child changed me permanently.
It made me stronger and gave me a different perspective on everything.
Nothing like finding the answer to "what's the worst that could happen?" to make everything else seem not so bad.
I found a new appreciation for the other people in my life and life's little tragedies just didn't seem as tragic.
In many ways, living through a stillbirth made me wiser.
It was difficult and even painful to be around other pregnant women or babies for a long time.
Be prepared for that and guard your heart accordingly.
It won't always be that way but it will be for a time.
You will always be your baby's mother.
Death didn't change that.
Don't be afraid to commemorate your child, perhaps with a picture or piece of jewelry or some other memorial.
Or perhaps you'll develop a little ritual or tradition to remember the baby on his or her birthday.
The baby had a life, albeit a short one.
It is good to honor and remember that.
I always remember my baby's birthday 8.
If you look around and are observant, you'll see signs that some of the other women around you have had a loss.
Maybe a little piece of jewelry or a tattoo or something will give it away.
I've met some wonderful women and heard some amazing stories asking about a little angel pin or necklace.
No way around it, the next pregnancy will be scary, especially around the time of the first loss.
I remember being terrified during my only ultrasound with the pregnancy after my stillbirth.
I was so afraid that they would find something wrong.
I think it's normal to be cautious and even scared.
But I'd rather live with a little fear than to not try again and live with a lifetime of regret.
It may take some time, but eventually, if you're looking for it, you may just come to see your baby's part in God's plan.
My son's little life had meaning, and losing him prepared me for so many other things in my life.
And his siblings have a little intercessor waiting for them in heaven.
Maybe he was there to meet my mother when she passed away too? I may not know the entire plan but I'm just sure that whatever happened, even though it was sad and painful, it was part of God's goodness, even if I don't understand it all completely.