in the afternoon...
actually at all.
I felt almost paralyzed by my torment and I was absolutely consumed with my feelings of sadness.
I avoided all incoming calls...
I had nothing positive to offer anyone anyway.
I felt like a complete failure to my children.
I tried to put on a brave face for them but I literally counted the minutes until I could go back to bed.
I wanted to crawl into a hole and stay there forever.
All of this anguish started the day that my husband told me that he wanted to separate.
I never saw it coming.
I worked so hard at home to be the perfect wife...
my kids always looked clean and put together, I was involved at their school, I cooked, cleaned, took care of my own appearance...
I thought I was doing it all.
So what happened? How could my husband and I be on such completely different pages? I guess the answer is pretty simple...
life just took over.
My husband went off to work.
He met new people and had real-live adult conversations.
I fixed boo boo's, read stories, and prepared peanut butter and jelly sandwiches.
We grew apart right before my eyes.
Our passion was gone...
our minds were tired...
small problems seemed overwhelming.
He was ready to just give up and move on to a better life...
or at least a different life.
I could not believe that this was happening to me...
this was something that happened to other people.
One day a friend that I had been avoiding put a book on my doorstep.
She asked that my husband and I would read it...
either together or apart.
The book was called, "The Magic of Making Up".
I literally laughed out loud when I saw it.
This book was supposed to solve all of my problems? Ha! Guess what? It did! I started to read the book and my entire outlook of my relationship changed.
It was shocking! I started to transform from the inside out and my husband took notice.
He picked up the book and began to read it as well.
He changed in ways I never thought possible.
We were communicating better than when we were first married.
Our passion came back...
and then some.
We were a team again...
a fabulous indestructible team.
Our kids became so happy and full of life.
It is hard to describe our family's utter transformation...
it is amazing.
I am as happy writing this today as I was miserable back then.
I want you to understand that if my relationship could be fixed yours can too.
I felt completely defeated and now I feel like nothing can get me down.
I am victorious and I love it.
You can feel exactly the same way I do now...
please do not wait...
fix your relationship today!